Infinities

Some infinities are bigger than other infinities. In this infinity of commitment of crime and sin, it lasts longer while other infinity stays smaller, and gets smaller with every passing  instance. It's scary. The commitment of sins leads to self-doubt. Redemption exists but it lasts for only some time. Recurrence evaporates feelings. The notion life is short; enjoy it to the fullest is but a lame excuse to commit sins. So what does it mean to live to the fullest?  Living to the fullest requires you to be transparent; it requires every part of your body to be aching in pain; agony; love; spontaneous; being able to tell people that they're assholes and vice versa. I want the other infinity to be longer. The distortion exists with in. Two entire universes exist with in. We just have to be careful not to feed on the spills. We just need to stick with 'it'. 'The greatest Jihad is to battle your own soul. To fight the evil with in.' How many times more? This was the last time.

This is probably the vaguest blog post I've ever made; and I like it this way.

The interim New Year's resoulution

So like everybody else, on the night of 31st December at precisely 12 am, while sitting in probably the most driest cold weather, I made a note to myself. I won't cry anymore. I will not surrender. This was followed by a warm smile and a platonic imaginary pat at the back as I skidded to my room.

January 2nd, 12.01 am: I am this close (the space between this-and-close) to cry myself to sleep. Even as I write this my mind is totally clogged with the best of the nefarious thoughts; my hands shaking and my vocabulary being picked by google; but I don't want to give up this soon. I am crying now. Go ahead and judge me.

Things to keep in mind this year:

1) Keep your mind straight; like straight straight.
2) Get the job done even if you have to spoil your so precious sleep and go to school afterwards.
3) No excuses.
4) Don't rush
5) Complete the 3rd one.
6) Don't become an adult you don't want to be.
7) Cry to your heart's content and forget.
8) The no "vague term" agreement.
9) Don't give up
10) Never.